Happy New Year, my loves. I trust you all had a good holiday. It’s been a while, almost a month since we last met. As I mentioned, I wasn’t giving weight loss much thought over the course of the holidays, so there wasn’t much to write about. And that’s kind of the beauty of having a blog that you don’t publicize: only a handful of people will notice when you go missing.
On a site like this it’s only natural to talk about New Year’s resolutions, but I don’t really make any. It’s odd, but tagging a goal with the word “resolution” seems to make it more unlikely that it’s going to happen. If your friend came up to you and said, “I’m going to take a cooking class this spring.” You’d think, That sounds like fun. But if they said, “My New Year’s resolution is to take a cooking class this spring.” You’d think, Yeah, we’ll see about that.
The other problem I have with New Year’s resolutions is that it promotes this kind of magical thinking about there being a special day to start stuff. We do this throughout the year when we say, “I’ll start on Monday.” I think when you decide you want to do something you should just go ahead and start at that moment. Not because “you might not live to see tomorrow” but because you want to get in the habit of your mind –and your choices– being what puts you in action, not some quirk of the calendar.
So this year I’m going to lose the rest of the weight that I want to. I’ve toyed around with my weight for a few years now, but I think this year will see an end of that. Weight-loss is definitely an intriguing subject for me, and there is probably no better subject for anyone who is into self-experimentation, but I think I’ve played with it as long as I can. I met a girl last year who has become very important to me, she’s someone I could see myself spending a long time with, and it’s not really fair to her (or anyone else) to say, “Hey, I’m going to gain 100 pounds to see if I can then lose it by just eating pre-packaged, processed foods that must contain white flour, processed sugar, and salt (although I think that would be a fun experiment). So I’m going to finish up this year and then I’ll find something else to experiment with. Hello heroin!
